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22. Pisces. Leap Year.
Actor. Oversharer. Spicy food enthusiast.
Currently doing Hairspray in Charlottetown, Prince Edward Island.
To hold a grudge or to not hold a grudge.
When I am over you, I am OVER you. Anyone that knows me knows that. I just don’t have time for the drama/bullshit/unnecessary conversation. I have better things to be occupying my time with. Sorryboo. I never understand people that complain about having fights/drama with people they’re not friends with or want to have nothing to do with. Then don’t speak to me sweetheart. It’s that simple. Can’t nobody make you speak to them. So, if you invite that kind of nonsense into your life, then that’s what you get.
I have two dueling sides though. One is when I am over someone and they start a conversation with me, whether it be on Facebook, iChat, whatever. I start the conversation being like, “Okay, I’m gonna just chit chat and call it a day”. At first I want to genuinely not be cunty and just have a decent conversation. But then after about three exchanges I am reminded that I don’t want to have anything to do with you. If I’ve crossed you off my life list, you’re done for. You’re over, Miss Honey. On the next the one. But I always find myself being like, “well just talk to them”. But I don’t even want to do that. Is that wrong? I don’t even want to waste the finger energy to type to you. I have people in my phone/on my buddylist that I probably will never speak to/care to speak to - but I keep them there because I feel like that’s the polite thing to do. Fuck that bullshit. I need to cut these bitches loose.
Then I have another side of me. For example, if a guy I had been talking to reveals to me that he now has a boyfriend and has moved on (my entire summer), of course my immediate reaction is to cut a bitch out of my life. It’s like, “they don’t want me, why should I bothered?” But then once a few days pass I realize, well they didn’t really do anything wrong so am I in a position to be mad? You can’t help what comes your way, and in a way it seems petty/childish to me to immediately be over them - when in actuality they didn’t do anything wrong. I think the major problem I have with these situations is that with these guys we’re never friends first. We always start knowing each other in some form of relationship, whether it be sex or dating. There was never a friendship period, so how can we go back to something that was never there? See what I mean?
I am learning to grow up and be smarter about my relationships. I have a pretty good idea of who/what kinds of people I want in my life. If you don’t fall into those categories, well that’s too bad. I need to do what’s best for me, and that’s that. I have no problems deleting a bitch from Facebook, so why is it so hard to follow through in real life? It’s time to be on my grown and sexy shit. Don’t speak about it, be about it.
The Office. Finishing what I started in May. I’m currently in the middle of season three.
Sexual. The man in my bed tonight. Chocolate + peanut butter = sin.
Wallpaper. Beatrix’s app background. Makes me miss home. Oh, NYC.
Broadway. My dear friend Christian White who will be in the upcoming Broadway production of The Scottsboro Boys is living the dream. This is his photo outside of the theater. Can’t wait to see him on The Big Broadway
Whitney Houston, singing “I Wanna Dance with Somebody” in Brisbane 2010
Ugh. I shouldn’t even have to dissect this one. Just watch this train wreck. Okay, maybe a little dissection:
- Why are you so angry, Whitney?
- What key is this in?
- That being said, it’d be great if she could still sing the melody in the new key. The fact that she can’t even do that brings tears to my heart.
- Why does she have background dancers in her tour? She has like three dance songs in her entire catalog. Come on, Whitney, you’re known for your ballads. The dancers are cute, though.
- I HATE HATE HATE WHEN SINGERS TELL THE AUDIENCE TO SING. NO! I PAID TO HEAR YOU SING! STOP TELLING ME TO SING! Now, I don’t mind it if it isn’t BLATANTLY to cover up the fact that the artist CAN’T sing. If they’re just being fun and playful, then great. But if you’re telling me to sing because you actually can’t, then I want my money back.
- Knowing how much Whitney sweats why would she agree to wear a full WHITE suit?
- Stop coughing! You’re on stage! People can see you! Stop it!
- That key change breaks my heart. All that tongue tension and vocal damage.
- Then she barely sings anything for the rest of the song. And “Dance chy’all”, doesn’t count.
Is it normal to go through a bar of soap a week?
I don’t think so, but I sure do run out of soap very quickly. Also, I think the soap that I am using is smaller than the average bar of soap. But come on! After a few lathers it’s noticeably smaller. What gives? I like a nice a soapy lather, so maybe I’m rubbing the soap too hard. I guess it’s okay, because the soap isn’t expensive - so I will just go buy some more.
BTW, I am ANTI body wash. I am a bar soap and a wash cloth kind of guy. I need to scrub the dirt away. None of this body wash and loofa nonsense. I actually used to hate when I would walk into a hotel and they would only have body wash. I need a damn bar of soap to do the trick!
Yes, these are my 8AM thoughts.
Happy September! Download a DJF mixtape! :)
summer travel 2010: london & bangkok
taking chances céline dion get outta my way kylie minogue 4th of july (fireworks) kelis take me home cher cold war janelle monáe caps lock m.i.a. hang with me [acoustic version] robyn kids mgmt the next episode dr. dre, kurupt, snoop dogg, and nate dogg up all night drake & nicki minaj waka waka (this time for africa) shakira & freshlyground calle ocho pitbull nobody wonder girls distance and time alicia keys i’m yours jason mraz
all the lovers kylie minogue acapella kelis can’t be tamed miley cyrus vanity christina aguilera fashion lady gaga commander kelly rowland your love is my drug ke$ha xxxo m.i.a. omg usher & will.i.am the glamorous life sheila e. dancing on my own robyn california gurls katy perry & snoop dogg bad boys alexandra burke & flo rida why don’t you love me beyoncé dancing queen abba
jump glee cast in my arms kylie minogue beautiful, dirty, rich lady gaga mamma mia abba lollipop mika ur so gay katy perry smile like you mean it the killers cemeteries of london coldplay samson regina spektor fuck you lily allen my moon my man feist radar britney spears right as rain adele lovefool the cardigans spice up your life spice girls
crush on you lil’ kim & lil’ cease think of you usher right here [human nature radio mix] swv if you love me brownstone can’t you see total & the notorious b.i.g. i can love you mary j. blige & lil’ kim you used to love me faith evans juicy the notorious b.i.g. money, power, & respect the lox, lil’ kim, and dmx it’s all about me mya & sisqo one in a million aaliyah pony ginuwine brown sugar d’angelo best friend brandy candy rain soul for real
beautiful christina aguilera save the best for last vanessa williams i’m like a bird nelly furtado just like a pill p!nk i’m with you avril lavigne a moment like this kelly clarkson wreckless love alicia keys everywhere michelle branch thank you dido torn natalie imbruglia forever mariah carey come back to me janet jackson if only you knew patti labelle i will always love you whitney houston because you loved me céline dion
she’s not me madonna great dj the ting tings it’s not my fault (it’s my fault) discovery take me there mýa & blackstreet touch amerie teeth lady gaga one minute man missy elliott & ludacris frank sinatra miss kitten & the hacker l.e.s. srtistes santogold 2nite janet jackson hush hush; hush hush the pussycat dolls obsessed mariah carey damn girl justin timberlake & will.i.am i’m your baby tonight whitney houston the one kylie minogue
slow dance keri hilson untitled (how does it feel?) d’angelo take you down chris brown the impossible mariah carey until the end of time justin timberlake & beyoncé promise ciara do me, baby prince shhh tevin campbell t-shirt destiny’s child any time, any place janet jackson
09/01/10
take a bathwatch Sunday’s episode of True Bloodfind something to eat for dinnergive away a lot of free music- edit and organize pictures from summer vacation, so I can finally post more
- continue reading Choke
continue to NOT eat the ice cream in my freezer
GPOYW, Pt. 2/Hookah. Also featured at the foam party in Thailand. I got that BREATH SUPPORT, HONEY!
GPOYW. Foam party on the beach in Thailand. Greasy, shiny, and Lady Gagad out.
- Alicia Keys “Distance and Time” The Element of Freedom
Sappy September. I guess I should label this post: #feelings.
Living on the road can be VERY lonely - as I’m sure most of you have read on my page before. Whenever I listened to this song while I was working/traveling I would always imagine someone singing it about me. Wish that someone would feel this way about me. Hoping that someone would be waiting for me when it was all over. Still hoping.
You are always on my mind
All I do is count the days
Where are you now?
I know I never let you down
I will never go away
I really wish that you’d stay but what can we do
All the days that you’ve been gone I dreamed about you
And I anticipate the day that you will come home, home, home
No matter how far you are
No matter how long it takes him
Through distance and time, I’ll be waiting
And if you have to walk a million miles
I’ll wait a million days to see you smile
Distance and time, I’ll be waiting
Will you take a train, to meet me where I am
Are you on your way?
I will never do anything to hurt you
I’ll never live without you
I really wish that you would stay but what can we do
All the days that you’ve been gone I dreamed about you
And I anticipate the day that you will come home, home, home
No matter how far you are
No matter how long it takes him
Distance and time, I’ll be waiting
And if you have to walk a million miles
I’ll wait a million days to see you smile
Distance and time, I’ll be waiting
You are always on my mind
All I do is count the days
Where are you now?
REALLY?! Well. What do you know? Times sure have changed.
(via sleeplessinsouthie)
Madonna “Cherish” Like a Prayer
The first guy I ever dated thought this was our song. It wasn’t. Well, at least not from my side. From my side our song was “Crazy for You” by Madonna, because that’s the song I used to listen to while I was falling asleep and thinking of him. Not “Cherish”. So now whenever I hear this song I’m like “Ugh. This is my wannabe song with…him”.
I wanna start watching MAD MEN just for that redhead’s tig ole biddies.
:NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY: Modified by Craig Staufenberg
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